the life game

This maybe the kind of choices that drive people to embark on life transforming journeys!
But then, how many times can one tell themselves that? Its just a fantasy, people like me always play safe, infact people like (extraordinarily nice & friendly, mind you) even play dirty to feel safe. Not the kind of dirty that will shock people or invite jaw dropping, eye popping disbelief.
This is a special kind, a special talent in the choices you make, people you talk to (and about what), things you show but more importantly things you hide and how you influence people around you. But there is a catch – intentions & ability, what they are and how they are perceived. Both need to be apt, you only play dirty to get ahead of equally good people, it never raises you above someone who is actually better than you. You just get the advantage of subjectivity. Only to realize that subjectivity works out better than objectivity when it comes to people. When a lot of people believe you are capable, it most probably is true.
The reason I use the word dirty, however, is only because when you are where you always wanted to be, you feel a little dirty for knowing you always knew you’d be there, and wonder if other people ever knew that everything you’ve done & everything you’ve been has been to this outcome. Is that ambition? Confidence? Ability? Commitment? Perseverance? Or because you played the life game right?
But then, you don’t really care, because if you’re like me, you’re busy questioning if this is what you REALLY wanted anyway. You wonder if you got a little too lost & carried away with your own game. Hah. Life.
The world wouldn’t really be a world without people in it, now would it? The ones who make & break other people & themselves, the believers, the cynics, the dreamers, the lost, the hopeful, the ones get what they want, and the ones who keep wondering what is it that they really want!

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